i guess i should start blubbering away now. I'll update this site more as the fatigue starts to go away.things that bother me. LOUD freaking conversations out side my door, all the time. Even when i shut the door, i can still hear them.
Things I miss the MOST.
my loving wife Val, boy do miss not having her to talk to her at a seconds notice. I miss her laying beside me in bed, her touch, her smell. I've even had noises here wake me up on the middle of the night thinking it was the dogs or Val shifting in bed
my family, friends, coworkers, random people on the street. call or email once in a while, will ya? you're not imposing and yes, I am up to a bit of conversation. I promise to keep the blubbering to a bare minimum. So far, I've only blubbered a bit with one visitor. My Aunt Shirley! I was quite overwhelmed and very emotional during our visit. Thanks Shirley, you made my day.
Day One: April 29, 2009
Today, I was told by the doctor I had a strong possibility of having either leukemia or lymph cancer. The doctor is going to try and get me in to see a blood specialist as soon as possible. I am not afraid of the possibilities for myself; my worries are for my wife and family.
Don’t get me wrong, if this is untreatable, it really sucks. Of course, I thought I would live forever, just like everybody else. I have to decide who I will tell among co-workers and friends and that will be very difficult also. Lots of thoughts going through my head, but I’m not going to be overly worried about it until I hear from a specialist. I do believe it is going to be bad though. In hindsight, I had a lot of symptoms, but didn’t realize what they were indicative of.
As usual, the kids think something is up, but we are waiting until this weekend to tell them. From what I’ve read today, it could be a month or years before I am gone. I will try and get things in order this week though.